I’m talking about myself here. Though I don’t generally whine, once I start, I can be extremely boring. Read at your own risk.
Lately I’ve been worried I’ve been getting quite an attitude problem. I did things that I’d never do. I refused to do things that are supposedly mandatory, and worse, I questioned them. I questioned traditions and disappointed many. I stood up for myself in front of people I’m answerable to, and what’s worse, I fought for justice. This is quite unlike me, but it’s what I always wanted to be all the time, but not able to get out. I’ve always tried to be in everyone’s good books, trying to make up when I go wrong and apologising at every step.
Well, I know some people who I know will disprove, but I’m now done being a pushover. I’m ready to leave behind roadkill, that doesen’t mean that I’ll lose touch of my sensitive side.
In short, my middle finger’ll be in it’s holster ready to be drawn.
The hardest part is that I don’t want to relapse into my old ways. I have to keep telling myself, “you don’t give a f*** about that anymore, remember?”
And please people, if your read this, and you know me, please comment. I get about 40 hits a day, but no comments from anyone.
Tags: [tags]me, rand_thoughts, whining, changes[/tags]
This is me, Shawn, leaving a comment because you’re asking for them. I think I shall be doing this more often.
I just read Plato’s Apology for my philosophical classics class. The talk of justice reminded me of it, or something.
Stay true to yourself and forget the audience.
i agree with shawn.you don’t have to be apologetic if you follow your heart.if some people have a problem with it,f*** them.carry on with your life.it is a testament to your character that you have written this in your blog.
forget the losers .you are the best.
I am not sure if you were being sarcastic about the system (read people or society) or really felt that way. But then the whole point is if you try to fight the system, not only in Soviet Russia but everywhere…System FIGHTS you!! Ohh, btw Best of luck for your new persona!
@anshuman, thanks a lot, actually, the right word I should be using is “reinvent” I want to change myself. I’ve always wanted to change myself, or rather, unchain myself but was always afraid of the repruccusions. I’ll write something on this soon. gtg. Thanks all for their support.